Friday, August 7, 2009

One more treatment down,had good cry,God is good

Hey everyone. I hope that you have had an awesome week and a wonderful weekend planned.
I had my second round of the "red devil" regiment today. My counts were up so i was happy about that. the treatment went over pretty well except for a minor mixup with my meds. never be too shy to second check docs and nurses. They make mistakes too. I didn't speak up and it caused a minor, no dangerous mistake on following docs orders on my iv. next time i will speak up.
I had told you before that i thought Roger had the day off but he didnt. My mom was prepared to take me as always. Honestly, i didn' know how they would react to seeing me bald today and seeing the chemo going in the port. I know it is very painful for them. But my mom is a very strong woman and she did great, prepared and getting me everything I needed. I haven't said enough about my parents. They have been here for me every step of the way and I know it breaks their hearts. I couldn't imagine seeing my daughter go through this. I sometimes think its harder on my parents, kids and roger than it is me. Anyway , my parents are awesome doing everything from cooking, fixing my car and helping me on bills. my mom even cooks me the dessert i want which is kind of wierd since my taste has gone haywire!
Roger and I left my mom and dad's about 9:15. He had to go home to get in the routine to work night shift tomorrow night. I have to say i really didn't understand why he couldn't come over, and i didn't want to come home alone. But I will tell you that God always knows what we need. Before leaving , Roger gave me a kiss and said "bye pretty face" that was so what i needed tohear. have not been feelin pretty today with no hair. I had a good cry realizing has put people in my life to get me through this moment. My parents are still alive and able to take care of me and be there and Roger andmy other friends always know when i need a little "pick me up." Then I started thinking that if my family here love me this much, then how much does my heavenly father, my creator love me? enought to send his son to dye for me! i can't even comprehend it. But right now i am thankful that God opens our eyes during these moments giving us a glimpse of his love. As the verse on my blog says , nothing, not death or life,nor angels or demons can separate us from God's love! And the way he works through people to show his fingerprints is so amazing.
Well, i've had my cry and really feel good in my soul. I'm sure you can relate to that. i'm gonna get to bed and get ready for another day tomorrow and i will rejoice and be glad in in.
Please leave comments. night!

1 comment:

Valerie said...

You are such a great example to me. I don't know that I could be as strong as you. I also loved what you said about your parents. They will always be there for you. I know that if one of my children were going through what you are I would hope I could be their strength like your parents are. Thank you so much for sharing your journey.